The Haunting of ones Mind. The Suicide of our Soldiers.

So far this year, Army officials have confirmed that 14 soldiers at Fort Hood have committed suicide.

Six others are believed to have taken their own lives but a final determination has yet to be made. The highest number of suicides at Fort Hood occurred in 2008, when 14 soldiers killed themselves, said Christopher Haug, a military spokesman.

It is a stupid question to me people asking why? Or why just some?

Because there are those that don’t want to hear the explanation anyway. Even if it comes from a Soldier.

Last year, a record-breaking 245 soldiers committed suicide. The Army seems on track to surpass that number this year, as 145 soldiers have taken their lives in the first half of 2010.


At 1:20 into this video a imbecile speaks these words.

If your going to support the troops, you have to support the war. Or if you don’t support it you should at least keep your mouth shut about it.


This Soldiers name, Marshall Thompson. And this is his story, told only by him.

Also link onto his Journal.

‘ The last reason why it may appear that soldiers support the war is the cold reception that civilians give when a soldier speaks out. Since I’ve started, I’ve been called liar, lazy, traitor, unpatriotic, and a “mother’s worst nightmare.” In contrast, the worst thing a fellow soldier has said to me so far is that he doesn’t agree with me. Furthermore, I’ve received several e-mails from veterans and even from soldiers currently in Iraq who have thanked me for speaking out.


Their are some that will Rant ” Support for our Troops ” but  like the old fool from the video, who implied he’s a coward and should have kept his mouth shut to what HIS VIEWS ARE.  THIS MAN THINKS HE SUPPORTS THE SOLDIERS. BUT WANTS THEIR STORIES SILENCED. I PERSONALLY DON’T CONSIDER THIS AS ” SUPPORT “.


There was another article written about another Soldier that described in detail the Horror he lives through on a daily basis.

Detroit Metro Times Curt Guyette wrote this piece on Chris Killion ( 27 years old at that time ), on January 31, 2007. The Articles Name, ” Battle Cry “.  From ’Nam to Iraq, two generations of vets find their common ground.

He could tell you why Soldiers are killing themselves as well, but would you listen or care? Or just label him one of a few Misfits in the service. Because I’ll tell you what, since this article in 2007, the suicide rate has soared. And I find that very very unexceptable. So more and more must becoming in some peoples delusional minds misfits, or reality is they feel the Battle will never be over. Something the Nam Vets knew so well. But with one big difference, there was a DRAFT during Nam. And sooner or later replacements would appear and their time would be up, dead or alive.

Of course Nam had two draft dodging places for some who refused to go. The poor Kids ( who made up the majority of troops in Nam A.K.A Poor Boys War for that fact) hid out in a place called Canada. The Rich kids who were never ostracized for dodging  like those that HAD to leave their country to escape, hid out in the other place called, ” COLLEGE “.

The draft made it possible for that relief to come. Today it is a total Voluntarily Service. But my God, did they know what they were joining? Or what would break out and take place?


For now troops who had served some 4,5,6,7,8 tours in Iraq are now being summoned to Afghanistan.

Held Over

This used to mean a good thing in show business. It meant people loved the show. And they wanted more!

But in WAR?

It means we don’t have anybody else to take your place. So you can’t leave by original day given. Then I love the part when someone states, the spokesman for the military say’s TROOPS DON’T MIND. They know they are achieving something good. They are looking forward to staying.

REALLY? Why not ask THEM. Not just one or two, BUT ALL OF THEM. I think you’d hear a different set of words, not suitable for print or audio. 

No, what these troops today have been hearing since 2001 is HELD OVER INDEFINATELY,

UNTIL YOU LOSE YOUR LIFE, LIMBS OR MIND. Which ever comes first. And they are deciding when their orders are up, but in the manner they are choosing now is they lose regardless. They would rather take their own lives, then be placed somewhere they feel is a losing battle. Where no replacements can come fast enough to relieve them of their tours and time up.

Al Lorentz was another who had a story to tell.

Sgt. John Bruhns

Lcpl Jeffrey Lucey story was even more compelling. He was no misfit or had anything wrong with him emotionally when he joined the service. But what he experienced drove him over the edge.


Nothing ever ceases to amaze me more, than the similarities between some War Protesters and the man they hated, BUSH and now OBAMA ( But at least he got us out of IRAQ ) . Because for some of them, the Presidents and themselves are ONE. 

It is about repeated mistakes.

Mistake one by Bush: For having gotten us into two insane unwinnable wars.

Mistake two by Protesters : For once again turning and diverting their anger from the one who has driven us back into this pit,

To the soldiers being forced to fight, kill, & die in it. But they refuse to acknowledge their MISTAKE. Again ranting every time a U.S. soldier mistakenly kills the innocent. The screams of BABY KILLERS once again over 40 years later, ring out in the atmosphere.

I literally HATED BUSH, I HATED and Did Not Support his Wars. But I’ll be Damned if I was going to stoop to his level and continue to make, THE MISTAKES OF THE PAST WITH HIM.  And if SOME of these protesters would stop and listen to what is coming out of their mouths. They to would realize how Similar they were to Bush.

All I know is the soldiers that fought in Nam, did not deserve to die, did not deserve to be maimed both physically & emotionally. And Nor do these soldiers fighting in the different venues throughout the Middle East. Yes believe it or not, in a War you have to KILL to keep from GETTING KILLED. And sometimes the innocent venture into the way. And don’t ever think for one second that the involved are unaffected. Because YOUR WRONG.

If we truly learned anything from the Nam Vets, the emotional toll at times are worse than the physical ones. And sometimes the physical wounds are more easily treated than the ones that can’t be seen with the eyes.

Only the ones who have been, know what they feel.

You can be against the War, but My God

Be Smarter this time around and keep things in perspective. When these soldiers joined the service, they certainly didn’t think they would literally be held Hostage. With one extended tour after the next. Some have served upwards of 8 tours of duty IN COUNTRY. Contrary to some news sources who would have you to believe that MOST, are dedicated to their cause.

What they are indeed dedicated to is their buddies, to whom they serve with. Some are in different regiments, and when some units time are up and their orders come.  The ones whose haven’t and are left, and the ones who leave are riddled with guilt for having gotten their orders home. They feel in their minds that they should still be there, even though in Reality. THEY DID THEIR PART. AND THEY EARNED THE RIGHT TO LEAVE. Their wounds you cannot see. What ever my views are or your views are, I know one thing, I would not want to be in these soldiers shoes. And they deserve BETTER, than the Rants of the Past. That’s why I can say I’m AGAINST THE WAR, BUT I’LL NEVER BE AGAINST THE SOLDIERS.

During Nam, the War Protests started out to be exactly that. PROTESTING THE WAR, and some how in the midst of the insanity, unfortunately PEOPLE BECAME F’D UP. And turned their anger and Diverted it in the wrong direction. Unto the Soldiers themselves.

Question is: Have we after all this time gotten any smarter ? Or are we all as Dumb as BUSH ?  Better do some soul searching, and for everyone’s sake Please come up with the right Answer. And These people that scream you can’t be against the war and at the same time support the soldiers. I SAY YOU ARE WRONG.

Obama was smart enough to get us out of Iraq, but will he also be smart enough to see Afghanistan is also a lost cause not worthy of any more American Troops lives. There is Pakistan, Iran and the biggest financial supporters of Terrorism, Saudi Arabia. That everyone in our government pretends they don’t recognize as our biggest enemy.

There are plots going on in every spectrum of this planet with the crazies. They are everywhere. Either blow Pakistan to bits and get Osama Bin Laden or forget chasing some ghost. Because we got Hussein Hung and nothing changed. Bin Laden wouldn’t be any different. Yes we’d get the man responsible for 9-11, something Bush refused to do. But going on 10 years later, is anymore of our American Troops lives worth this one man’s capture? Then What?

This is what kept Viet Nam going. We can’t let the ones who died have been in vain. And I’ll say how many more funerals do you want in the future to atone for these deaths? There was a Wall built with over 58,000 names. The latest names added in 2010, brought the number of names on the black granite Wall to 58,267. I viewed the movable one in 2006 in Westland, Michigan. I was brought to tears watching a Vet sitting on the ground crying, being consoled by his Veteran Brothers. That wall was so sobering and brought you to such reality of what these soldiers, all of them went through. You stood there unable to move, no words clear enough to speak that could capture what you were thinking – for you yourself had no Idea how you would express them. Enough Names Already, Enough Walls, Enough Casualties.

As Civilian Casualties Rise U.S. Soldiers Commit Suicide in Record Numbers

Enough of this insanity of giving thought to analogies of why? While you are deciding on that why, another soldier will have taking their life. There can be no winner in Afghanistan, this will drag on and on. I do support our Troops. I want them Alive.

And Afghanistan has no agenda anymore, because our enemies now sit among ourselves in the very neighborhoods we all live. It is total chaos and unpredictable. We don’t know anymore who are enemies we live among are here, let alone abroad.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Within the U.S. military’s rank and file, there are growing doubts about winning in Afghanistan, a mood that contradicts upbeat war reports delivered to Congress last week by the top commander and officials.

Sept. 27, 2010

Sept. 28, 2010

Yes, Suicides are up in military. Victims of our Government and Victims of some here at home who prejudge them.

Thank God, we are here and not them. Right?

I feel sorry for each and everyone of them. But what if the Draft was brought back into play? Only this time everyone goes, no hiding in College. For Rich or Poor. For or Against a War isn’t the issue anymore. Not for those in Uniform. They are getting out anyway they can. Dead or Alive. Some, Casualties of War or the one taking place within themselves. And it’s sad and disheartening for all.

They last verse of Bob Dylan’s ” Chimes of Freedom ”  spoke it with crystal clear clarity. And left no room for doubt.

Starry-eyed an’ laughing as I recall when we were caught
Trapped by no track of hours for they hanged suspended
As we listened one last time an’ we watched with one last look
Spellbound an’ swallowed ’til the tolling ended
Tolling for the aching ones whose wounds cannot be nursed
For the countless confused, accused, misused, strung-out ones an’ worse
An’ for every hung-up person in the whole wide universe
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

Chimes of Freedom

Far between sundown’s finish an’ midnight’s broken toll
We ducked inside the doorway, thunder crashing
As majestic bells of bolts struck shadows in the sounds
Seeming to be the chimes of freedom flashing
Flashing for the warriors whose strength is not to fight
Flashing for the refugees on the unarmed road of flight
An’ for each an’ ev’ry underdog soldier in the night
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

In the city’s melted furnace, unexpectedly we watched
With faces hidden while the walls were tightening
As the echo of the wedding bells before the blowin’ rain
Dissolved into the bells of the lightning
Tolling for the rebel, tolling for the rake
Tolling for the luckless, the abandoned an’ forsaked
Tolling for the outcast, burnin’ constantly at stake
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

Through the mad mystic hammering of the wild ripping hail
The sky cracked its poems in naked wonder
That the clinging of the church bells blew far into the breeze
Leaving only bells of lightning and its thunder
Striking for the gentle, striking for the kind
Striking for the guardians and protectors of the mind
An’ the unpawned painter behind beyond his rightful time
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

Through the wild cathedral evening the rain unraveled tales
For the disrobed faceless forms of no position
Tolling for the tongues with no place to bring their thoughts
All down in taken-for-granted situations
Tolling for the deaf an’ blind, tolling for the mute
Tolling for the mistreated, mateless mother, the mistitled prostitute
For the misdemeanor outlaw, chased an’ cheated by pursuit
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

Even though a cloud’s white curtain in a far-off corner flashed
An’ the hypnotic splattered mist was slowly lifting
Electric light still struck like arrows, fired but for the ones
Condemned to drift or else be kept from drifting
Tolling for the searching ones, on their speechless, seeking trail
For the lonesome-hearted lovers with too personal a tale
An’ for each unharmful, gentle soul misplaced inside a jail
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

Starry-eyed an’ laughing as I recall when we were caught
Trapped by no track of hours for they hanged suspended
As we listened one last time an’ we watched with one last look
Spellbound an’ swallowed ’til the tolling ended
Tolling for the aching ones whose wounds cannot be nursed
For the countless confused, accused, misused, strung-out ones an’ worse
An’ for every hung-up person in the whole wide universe
An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing.

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